Ah, the luxury of no readers and no expectations. How nice to have this little spot right here, with a cool breeze blowing, sitting under a shade tree drinking grape juice. I have really had a craving for grape juice lately. I find my taste buds have acquired the Pavlovian response that commercials are trying so desperately to elicit. Alton Browne sells Welches and all of a sudden I want some. The response doesn't always kick in but those What-a-Burger ads KILL me. Best fast food burger ever. There's always room for What-a-Burger.

And how delightful to live in a state (Texas) where Dairy Queen is one of the most revered landmarks. Texas loves Dairy Queen. When I was a kid that cold sweet smell of the Dairy Queen that would waft out of the take-out window when you went to get a cone used to be ice-creamy-orgasm. On a hot day it was like a little whiff of paradise. I don't suppose the after-life (why do we call it that? Maybe this is the in-between "after" life. What makes us think that "life" is the state of all things? What if it's better than life? Some other term should be used) is going to be a Dairy Queen but, it wouldn't be a bad one, really.

Really, I just wanted to say that it's wonderful to say the words "President Obama" and everyone who thinks that politics are going to continue on in their post-civil-war-emptily-bombastic-histrionic-pork-barrel ways are dinosaurs. The new voters are beginning to get the drift. We are all connected and when you break up these connections with hatred and fear the planet and her people suffer. Sincerity and kindness are not diseases. Honesty is not a breakfast cereal. Joy is not money and oil-slurping cars are not happiness. Compassion is not just for the movies. All the things that make-up an adult has nothing to do with greed, jealousy or fear.

When we were kids we saw the world and adults as we said these words which echo down throughout our lives: "'I'm never going to be like that." But, maybe that's what our parents said, and theirs said it and so on, and so on, and gradually all the good things that make adulthood so rich and satisfying became watered down or discarded- threw the baby out with the bath water so to speak. So adults just became more and more child-like but because they are bigger than children they are brats and bullies. My generation is full of people who are frightened of becoming responsible adults because their role models were so miserable and selfish.

But that's not being an adult, that's being a giant spoiled baby. A baby who cries when anything changes- until it needs a change and then it cries some more.

There's a Buddhist saying I love, "cultivating a limitless heart". The limitless heart is part of being a real adult. Seeing the world of people before you as one of your own family is another. Making things interesting, musical, colorful, loving and decent- that's part of being an adult. Adulthood as a biological term is not at all the same thing. Genuine adulthood means seeing the kaleidoscopic panoply of planet earth with trembling and grateful awe. It means genuinely wanting to help everyone. It means, if I can get all Jesus on us for a sec, the peace that passes understanding. I love that expression. So many many things in life passes our understanding. You have to make peace with it. That's being an adult.


I'm just rambling here. A blog allows me to do it. The dog is barking, my parakeet needs attention, I have Internet work to do, I have stuff to write. I'm just stopping and looking around. I do that a lot. I like to look at the world. Earth is my hometown. I feel such a deep love for earth and all who reside upon it. I fervently wish that no harm comes to it or you, ever.

I stopped "journaling", as all those self-help, broken-hearted, woman-empowering chick mag articles call it, years ago because I tire of looking at what I was thinking 10 years ago. It usually boils down to "I feel like crap, wish I had a cup of coffee, a cigarette and a candy bar right now, why am I so lousy at everything?" Just like now. However, I kinda want to place stuff out to look at, like brick-a-brack in the living room and if you want to look at it, too, that's fine.

Right now this brick-a-brack is mostly just disgust at how under-rated writing is. I was flailing for a job and I went to several "freelancer" sites to maybe pick up a gig. Theses sites are nightmares that seem to be run by people who think you can just toss out writing assignments and see who's stupid enough to do it for one tenth of the money a writer should be getting. If you want to be a writer, you have no experience with editors and your friends all told you, "You should be a writer, you're so smart!" then these are the sites for you. If, on the other hand, you know that what you write off the top of your head with no forethought or research is pure crud, you are appalled at the lack of respect for a writer's time and knowledge when you apprehend that eight bucks is what they will pay you for 300 words of prose.

Yeah, I can write 300 words for 8 bucks. It will look a lot like this blog: self-referential, casual, extemporaneous and slightly silly (or stupid, depending on the day's mental sharpness.) Is that what people really want to read? Why?

I'm so tired of looking at magazine and internet text rife with stupidities, anachronisms and redundancies. Only today I read, on MSN, about someone's "emotional feelings". I'm curious as to what other kind of feelings there are? I also read about the "Civil War soldiers at the battle of Bunker Hill". I guess those guys just sat there on Breed's Hill for 90 years waiting for the Civil War to start. I wonder if they won? Then I read about a power drink that was going to "stretch my abilities as long as five hours." Must be those temporary abilities that don't last as long as the ones you always have, you know, the ones that are rubberized so that they can stretch out time. I understand why the writers of these pieces would get 8 bucks for this offensive nonsense. My question is, how stupid do you have to be to publish it? (or read it? But I'm answering my own question because, of course, I read it, didn't I? So we've established that one has to be pretty stupid.)

As a writing professional, I can only say that inundating the public with this drivel underestimates both the skills necessary to be a writer and the public's tolerance for such nonsense. Blogs are fine. You get what you pay for. However, poorly written prose is seeping its noxious pus onto everything we read.

Amateur writers be warned- we will constantly make fun of you as we bitter pros nurse our shots of Wild Turkey in a dark corner of the local bar, lamenting our cashiering jobs and wondering when writers will get paid like adults again. I suppose that's going to be sometime in the future when we will get paid to fix your 300 lousy words. Nah, that'll never happen. We'll get paid 8 bucks, tops, to fix it.

Since I can't keep track of all my goofy websites, I am now trying to blog. Also, I can't afford to keep them all going.
I swear that I shall not ever use the words "blogosphere" or "bloggin'" except now to say I'm not using them. I also swear that I will try not to put up recipes, family photos or vacation pics. I'll probably put up pics of Dave, though. Dave is a parakeet. He lives with me, or tries to.